“The future is no place to place your better days.”

I can't seem to fall asleep. Probably because I woke up at 12:3o. I hate waking up late because your whole day is gone. Anyways I am so pumped for this month. Prom, graduation, and beach for a few days. Lately I find myself becoming nostalgic. Mostly because I know that high school is ending, I am about to go off on my own to college, and I am leaving my friends and childhood behind. I am really excited, but sad at the same time because leaving high school is a reminder that life is passing by so quickly. On a happier note, this vacation has been amazing. I have been busy everyday which is nice. I must say that I do enjoy being 18. I had a gathering when my parents went away and stored the rest of the "juice" in the garage fridge and all my dad did was ask if it was mine and i said yeah, and he said that he likes that kind of "juice" and dropped the subject. Hahaha love it. 

Justin gave me the new John Mayer CD and it is awesome. I have been playing it non-stop all weekend. I got burnt yesterday and I am pumped about it because I am on my way to being tan. Not to mention that sun is really good for acne. April vacation has put me in the summer mode which is bad in a way because I no longer give a shiz about school. By the way I found a summer job! I applied to a casting agency and they offered me a postion as an extra on the new Adam Sandler movie which is amazing! They pay the extras well and you get to be in a movie at the same time! I am really excited. The only negative is that my first day of filming is the day after prom. I will be at Cedardale until 5am and I have to be in Boston by 11am to shoot. I am going to be so fricken tired. Oh well. That is what coffee is for. Anyways, I am tired now and am going to listen to John Mayer's CD on my ipod and fall asleep. Peace.

Chinatown

I hate the dentist. The appointments are always at an inconvenient time and the people who work there are robots and pretend that everything is happy and exciting. Piss off. Not to mention I knew that when I walked in they would notice my wisdom teeth and make me have surgery. After that I took myself and my sour mood back home where my wonderful mother made me a homemade waffle. Wiping the tears from my eyes I inhaled the waffle like a dog eats his scraps from the table. Well anyways, my plan was to lock myself in my room and write my term paper seeing as it is due tuesday and I need to pass it in to graduate. Nothing was going to remove me from my room because I was determined to finish this paper so I could enjoy the rest of my easter break. Within the hour I was at a movie... It is now 11:30 and I still haven't started my paper. I shall attempt again tomorrow.

Wax Candle

I have been sitting here for the past 4 hours doing these freakish notecards for my term paper and I am still not done. Not to mention that when I finish these, I have to write the paper itself which has to be a minimum of 7 pages. I know for some of you nut cases that's nothing. But for me that is physically impossible. I am on coffee number 2 and I will probably be working throughout the night. toothpicks are holding my eyelids up at the moment because coffee apparently doesn't work. I probably accidentally made decaf. I have gone through every song on my playlist which means that I can't focus. Whatever i give up. I'll just sit here in the fetal position until I can motivate myself to continue on. Yay...

Thoughts for Thought?

WHOA! I bet you are wondering, "Why the f**k hasn't Pat posted a blog in f**king forever?". Well B's and G's, I have no idea. I guess probs because I have been too busy not doing any of my homework. Well anywho, I got new glasses today. They are pretty ill if I do say so myself. Obviously you knew my opinion though because why else would I buy the darn things if i didn't like them. I could really go for a glass bottle coke right now. Yes, you read correctly, GLASS bottle coke. Not reg coke. It tastes 900 times better in glass. I'm totally listening to "Forever" by Chris Brown right now. I know I know, he's violent and disturbed, but, I can't help it, that song is awesome. I just pulled an eyelash out. I hate that. I need a new backpack. Mine's in the great beyond. wow this blog needs some piccccccssssssssss.

Yeah about the pics...there are none. Oh well. I want to have a yard sale. Sh** it's still winter. I'm totally having one this summer. I also need a new hat. I can never decide on hats though which is why I only have one. Okay nickelodeon sucks now. Spongebob Squarepants is WAY overplayed and the new shows suck. Congrats Disney, YOU WIN. I give up. Ties are fancy. I should wear them more often. Can someone go to the Salvation Army with me? I want cheap clothes. My friend scored a suit for 10 dollars! OK well now that I have wasted your time with random thoughts, I am going to go make tea to soothe my upset stomache, thus allowing me to exit the fetal position. 

AHH

Okay so lately i have been doing A LOT of thinking about myself. I really want a new look because it is definitely time for a change especially seeing as how I am going to college soon. I want to grow out my hair but I am not sure if i can pull it off because I have never done it. And I have really rough hair so idn if it would be a fro. Probably not but I worry about everything. I need opinions. I also want a gym membership so I can actually get an ounce of muscle on me. I am sick of being skinny. I can't afford one though and I have zero motivation so I probably wouldn't use it either. AHH see what I mean. These things have been running through my head constantly. Lately too I haven't really been giving a shit about anything. I hope that isn't a sign of depression, actually I know it is. But I don't know what I would be depressed about.

Okay that was a really negative paragraph but I needed to write about it. Anyways.....nvm. I don't have anything positive to say haha because today sucked for obvious reasons (it was the first day back at school since vacation and I just want to fricken graduate.) Did anyone else see the brother renee shirts?? HOW RIDICULOUS! I don't want that shit as my senior shirt! Whoever thought of that needs a serious beating. Well anyways, I have to finish this pointless project that Mansour gave me about personalities. I bet Ellen is cranking it out right now too.

I don't have a title...

I realize that I have not blogged all week but shit happens. Anyways, I worked mad hours so that by next week I can afford this

I'm so pumped. Anyways, I worked up until monday and on tuesday I....can't remember what I did. I had a "gathering" on thursday which was okay I guess. A lot of people didn't come because of the snow though which sucks. Friday I spent cleaning up my shat hole of a house and went back to work today. Seriously, I NEED A NEW JOB THAT PAYS WELL! HELP ME! I am so sick of serving food to people and being ice cold in a hockey rink for long hours. This vacation was not relaxing like it should have been, and now I have no days off for the longest time and I am fuckin' fed up with high school. I just want to graduate damnit. I'm ready for college. Whatever. I'll post again when I actually have a good story to tell.

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My butt donut popped :(